Small bottle

I’m rejected….

Thinking back… They say gpa 3.5 and above is possible to get in… My result is above… But they told me no place for me… What is tt? Then they got place for non-singaporean? I’m still have so much confidence tt I should be able to get in… Am I tt bad tt I cannot get in? Isn’t local university for locals?

Remember~ =)

times flies~ i want to believe in this all the time~ to let myself cherish what is needed to be cherish and also let boring, hard and suffocating times to go faster~ 

2 months of interns past~ remember i’m grumbling on how i dun feel like going to work to my parents~ remember how worry and nervous and excited i am on the pervious day and first day of work~ remember how i’m excited to know i getting to nus for internship~ remember how i’m excited to know where i’m posted to for internship~ remember….

exactly 8 months pass~ remember how my friends helped me to get back on track in my studies~ remember the torture of chasing my studies~ remember the weird feeling when i get back to school~ remember how my family look after me to let me recover~ remember the feeling of vomiting after medicine~ remember how my small strength get me to do nothing and unable to help in housework during recovery~ remember how scared i am to wet my wound the first day at home~ remember how worry my parents is to let me bath alone when i just discharged~ remember how happy n shock i am to be discharged so fast~ remember how my family come to hospital twice everyday no matter how tired they are, to bring me my food, tt is much more better than hospital’s~ remember how i suffer 2-3 days after operation, the no appetite, the pull out of tube from my body, the cannot move body, the no sound voice~ remember the icu~ remember how pain is the injection for Anaesthetic(麻醉药)~ remember how the feeling is like to be push into the operation theater ~ remember how my parent accompany to wait for time to pass on the first day in hospital~ remember how scared i am to be charged into the hospital~ remember how worry i’m that the hospital stay will affect my studies~ remember the first time i get to know my operation date~ remember how my daddy is worry for the dates for operation when there is no news from the doctor~ remember the checks up that i was told i need to undergoes operation~remember…

i’m changed~ i realize ~ i really become a scary cat who really scary of almost everything~ maybe is the operation~ maybe~ really afraid to leave~ maybe~ really afraid to leave people ard me~~~~~ i’m scared of birds~ i’m scared of cats~~ i’m scared of stray dogs~~ i’m scared of mouse/hamster~~ i’m scared of rabbits~~ seem like~~ i’m scared of animals! lol~~ i’m changed~ i think i’m more talkative~ and more daring to speak to another~ tt is good right? hehe~

HAPPY 16.09.2010 ~

My First and only birthday present this year!!! LOVE it so much… monkey!!! kekez… :P thanks ah lang! love ya!

Cute mah?? it snatch my spec to wear! lol… :P

Went to eat Steam boat with wen-jie and ah lang… see our meat ball fa fu — actual size is the chopstick one!! lol… and my monkeyis given to me yesterday too… =)

to end off our outing… we went to toilet to took this pic… and also to let uu guys see… ah lang’s new hair style!!! nice right??? very de nice ah!!! pei ta! :)

Went to help my mum at her bubble tea shop after tt… this is done by me! cute right?? hehe… :P

Boring life…

What life i’m having… alone at home most of the time… mum opened a bubble tea shop, busy from morning 8am to night sometimes 6pm sometimes can be as late as 8pm… business isn’t really good… more time is needed for break even… i’m rushing fyp n cannot go down n help my mum… kind of worry for her health… but she seems healthy… so it’s a good thing… =) sis is also very busy… work n sch… work n sch… busy busy… dad same as usual but now… he need to go down to mum’s bubble tea shop n help close shop after his own work… worry about his health oso… he seems very tired… yesterday i felt really guilty… thinking tt the floor is really dirty, i wanted to hav the floor mopped… thinking tt i will be lazy if i push to tml morning… so i decide to mop yesterday night… my dad saw n kept  saying it is ok n wanted to help… i pushed his offer but was pushed by him… he so tired le still help mop the floor… really guilty sia… =P

Fyp… fyp…. fyp…. hope to finish it as fast as possible!!!! hate fyp! hate it! i’m flooded by fyp… maybe drowning… kekez… =P just hope to get it done n faster real holiday come n can rest a bit n oso can go down help mum… =)

abt my last last post…. thanks guys n gals… really thanks for the gu li… =) love uu guys n gals!! it is just so good to hav friends… hehez… =P

In no use….

i actually… reallly think that i’m in no use… got mum angry yesterday… its like the third time after my operation tt i got my mum to tt angry… wow… i actually din think tt its totally my fault… i really dun think i did wrong uu see… but… well… i dunno… but i really blame myself for being so…. talkative… maybe… n say wrong things tt make my mum goes thinking i saying things tt hurt her…( when i dun intend to… i love my mum… =) ) so should i chnage n be quiet at home??? i’m really in no use… is it better if my parent din pay for my operation n they may be more richer n carefree??? and then they can save the 2000 buck n more on me after operation…. ha… i dunno wat to do with me now… =( cried yesterday…. and abt to cried when typing this (but cannot… frens are beside me… they will find me weird… ) BUT wat the use of crying?? actually thinking…. is it tt i hav change after operation?? it dun really seems so cham before my operation…. what happen??? =(

really must end off this here or i will really cry le… bye!